I’m stressed out and it is negatively affecting the way I single parent right now. My children are everything to me and I know from past experiences that they always pick up on my attitude even if I think I am doing my best to have my ”game face” on.
Part of the issue is that I have not been well and there is no time to take a break and actually be sick. Yes, my youngest is now old enough to understand when I have a migraine and have to stay in bed in the dark but then I just end up feeling both sick and guilty because it doesn’t seem fair to her.
The strange part is that my daughter lives with me and recently I have been anxious about money, and just everyday tasks. I felt like I needed a break, but when she went to her dads house for a week for winter break, I didn’t know what to do with myself. I felt more anxious. I had one day of peace and then everything seemed out of place.
If I don’t call my daughter every day or text several times a day she is disturbed, but when I text my grown boys once a week, they are disturbed and feel like I am interfering in their lives. I feel like I can’t win.
I am frustrated watching others go on vacations and enjoying their life when I feel like I am just getting through the tasks of the day. It just seems like there is never enough hours in the day sometimes.
I do know that everything will be ok and this will pass, but I want other moms to know that its ok to have down times. I should use my time alone to reach out to people and hang out with other adults. We have enough food and our needs are taken care of so I am really not sure what I am stressed out about. Hopefully this will pass soon.
