I’m so frustrated. I have lost my willpower. I was feeling so good working out hard every day, eating healthy, and taking my supplements. My migraines had almost completely stopped. I had so much energy every day and night. I felt like a new person.

What happened you ask? Well honestly it started when we had a Hurricane in September. I really didn’t lose power for very long, but I went off my meal plan and then kept saying I would get back on tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow.

Then October came and it began to get darker earlier so when I previously had time to come home, cook for my daughter, and go for my walk, I was now getting home to complete darkness and didn’t feel comfortable walking alone. It didn’t help when my walking partner stopped our daily walks. She began a second job and while sometimes I looked forward to walking alone and turning up the volume in my headphones, now I felt alone and not committed as I had before. We cheered each other on and when one of us didn’t feel like it we “guilted” the other one into going. After all it was 30-40 minutes for a two mile walk we could do that.

This week has been the hardest. Even with the darkness and losing my walking partner, I was determined I would walk every night. Every night this week it has rained and I have eaten the right foods, but the wrong amounts. I feel hungry all the time. I am having trouble sleeping again. My body aches and not the good ache I got from working out, it’s an old arthritic ache.

As a single mom, I can’t afford to go back to a personal trainer and I feel that is what I need to get me back on track. Someone who will make me accountable and get me back on track. But when I write that and especially when I hear myself say it out loud, I just get madder at myself. Why can’t I do it on my own if it is that important to me.

Then I say something even worse, “well, when I am done with school in six months, I will definitely have the time to devote to myself.” I don’t want to do that because I could gain back all the weight in six months that I have worked so hard to lose. I still have so much to lose, I can’t gain back any and haven’t yet, I just haven’t kept losing as I was before. It is almost like it took my body 12 weeks to get to a point where I could train it to lose weight and now I am back at step one again.
How do I get motivated? I found this article at https://gethealthyu.com/how-to-get-motivated-to-lose-weight/
1. Find Your Why. …
2. Write Down Specific Goals. …
3. Seek Out A Supportive Community. …
4. Approve Of Yourself Just As You Are. …
5. Create a Positive Daily Affirmation. …
6. Establish A Rewards System. …
7. Stop Making Excuses. …
8. Expect Progress, Not Perfection.

The why is easy because I am not happy with my weight or the way I feel. I am physically unhealthy and need to get into shape.

Stop making excuses is a hard one because I feel like my reasons are reasons, not excuses. When my daughter was younger, I always thought when she was older then I could work out easily.

Rewards system-now this I like but I have to find something that I can afford and enjoy. Maybe a pedicure or having my hair done by my favorite hair stylist.
How is everyone doing with your fitness plan? Any ideas or tips that you can share with me?

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I am a single parent of three wonderful children. Two boys who are grown and live out on their own and a teenage daughter at home. I have gone through a lot of drama with divorce and sickness- just to start, but have found my way out of the shadows and I am ready to motivate and empower women with what I have learned. Being unqualified is exactly what makes me qualified. I work full time in the corporate world, I'm a parent, and I resell products on several different online platforms. Last, but the most important, I am a Christ follower at Church By The Glades.